It’s so quiet now. I had so much support when mom was dying, everyone bringing food and cards and money all the time, it almost got annoying. But to be honest I could have used it more now than then. No one is coming by and asking how you are anymore, even if its for someone elses sake. Turns out they were moms friends, not my friends. Turns out I on’t need therapy, I don’t need pity. I just need love without having to grovel for it. Even typing this I’m sobbing. I’ve never felt like this before, I feel so alone.